It’s time to stop apologizing for how you are. Stop apologizing for the way you feel everything so deeply and intensely, for the way you always give your heart no matter how many times you got broken, for the way your heart falls in love. It’s time to stop listening to the people who tell you to slow down. It’s time to stop vanquishing how you really feel because nothing feels better to you than setting your heart free, nothing feels better than expressing yourself for who you are, nothing feels better than people admiring you for the real you. It’s time to stop apologizing for the way you put the pieces of your heart back together or how you heal. It’s time to stop apologizing for the way you protect yourself by letting only selected people in. Stop apologizing for closing the doors on the face of people who no longer bring you joy and happiness. Stop apologizing -Whether you love too much or too soon, whether you’re too trusting or too forgiving whether you’re too emotional or too romantic. It’s time to stop apologizing for not wanting or wanting to settle, for not playing the games on people, or for not wearing a fake mask so you can seek attention. It’s time to stop apologizing for searching for the right kind of love instead of just falling into the wrong arms just because everyone around you is in a relationship. It's time to take back your love from those who don’t value it. it’s time to cut off all the strings and slam the door shut to those who trample you. Stop apologizing for how you fight for love, how you break open, and then heal yourself again. You can always change what you have now. Stop feeling sorry for yourself when you know your heart is in the right place. You don't need to apologize for how your heart feels. . . . - Tanya Shrivastava IG- tanyaashrivastavaa @talesandunicorns . . . . . . . . #Creatorshala #Fashion #Blogger #Creatorshalablogger #Influencer #Creator #Photography #Fashionblogger #Love #Instagram #Contentcreator #Makeup #Beauty #Style #Creatorshalainfluencer #Photooftheday #Lifestyle #Follow #Model #Ootd #writer#author . . . . . . . . .

“I don’t love you. I am breaking up with you. You deserve someone better than me. It's just not working out let’s take a break”. I know these words hurt like hell. But, have you ever been to a place where you knew that the other person can be your potential partner? You knew at some point you just clicked with each other. When you talked to them you literally felt the whole zoo in your stomach. You used to get a forever kind of vibe from them. You remember cackling up even on their worst jokes. You both knew that you’ll be a perfect fit for each other. You felt so ready to be with each other that you weren’t even afraid to make the first move. You both knew you had unsaid feelings for each other. You used to talk and share stuff with each other daily. You were ready to give yourself away because you just wanted to be with them so much. But, one day out of nowhere that person decides to ghost you completely. They stopped replying to you or they replied to you late. They stopped checking up on you. No, one talks or says about how an almost relationship hurts like a real breakup. Yes, there were no commitments towards each other but there was a hope that one day you may get together. You knew you carried potential. But they were just too much afraid of being in a real thing. They knew that you guys will be together for the long run. They knew that you will always be going to stick up with them. But they just ran away like a coward. Damn, that hurts like hell.No one tells about how much their absence hurts because lowkey you guys never even got to be with each other for knowing how the things will work out for you. No one ever said moving on was easy. But sometimes it feels like getting over the end of an actual relationship is like a brisk walk in the park compared to the nights we spend awake missing something with someone that we never really had. You try to initiate a conversation with them to know how they are doing but they take days to reply to you. You just don’t know how to feel or what to do anymore. what sucks more is not just the memory of how amazing it was, but what it could have been. They just didn’t choose you. It was like they wanted you but they never wanted to be with you. They will legit choose someone for their time pass over you. we never know whether they faked the whole thing or just didn’t wanted to with us or couldn’t give us what we needed. Don’t expect that one day they will come running back ready to give their all. It’s likely not going to happen, and if it does, it probably will not come in the shape and form that you hoped. No, they’re not going to show up at your door in the pouring rain and say I miss you. It's not a movie. You deserve to be seen. You deserve to be chosen. You deserve to be feel wanted. Your feelings are valid. You can’t just sit around hoping they will come back. Once you can let go of what feels like a missed opportunity with the perfect person for you, you can open yourself up to new opportunities, even if that means sucking it up on shitty dates with knockoffs of them. Because before you got into that almost relationship, you were probably trying to get over or someone or something else, looking for that bond that you thought you would never find again. But you did, even if you weren’t destined to. And if it happened once, it will happen again. Just hang in there. - Tanya Shrivastava . . . . . . Find me on IG - @tanyaashrivastavaa @talesandunicorns . . . . . . .#Creatorshala #Fashion #Blogger #Creatorshalablogger #Influencer #Creator #Photography #Fashionblogger #Love #Instagram #writer #author #lifestyle #Style #Creatorshalainfluencer

Today at 6 in the morning I decided to go against my daily mood of laziness so I got up from my bed, brushed my teeth, Washed my face with the cold water splash. //I could still hear your voice from our yesterday's voice call. "Aditi" you said in the exact tone that depicts the reluctance of letting go but a self control of hiding it.// I patted my face dry. Tied my hairs in a bun. Wore the most cozy sweatshirt that I stole from Bhai and sneaked out of the house in my pyjamas. It was my second day of terrible pain of period cramps yet I needed a break. //A break from the feeling of this constant loneliness inspite of having so much people around me; a break from the loop of your voices that were running in my head; break from the rejection of my heart for accepting the truth that was right infront of me.... I won't be able to meet you for a long time now.// I walked out from the colony to the highway, passing past the Shani temple. There's no Sunshine today. //Just like the fog on my way that blurs the buildings around, the liquid in my eyes was blurring my vision even more. Yeah... My heart's weeping out through my eyes after a really long time.// The morning today was silent than the usual ones. There's no bird on the trees to chirp. There's no cloud in the sky to give me company. I'm all by myself, my head and the thoughts. Well, lately I asked for writing suggestions on my Insta story. Guess what was the most common response? 58 people asked me to write something about long distance relationship. Funny , isn't it? How could I ever write on that? When I can't even cope up with something like it in my real life. //"Maybe it's the distance thing that we are thinking we couldn't work because we weren't habitual of it" was your response when I asked why we don't work anymore. Distances! Well yes, maybe distances can make me feel much more vulnerable than you alone could do. Maybe, it can take away the chance from me to hug you tight enough that We both gasp for breaths in the end at the times of need. Maybe I couldn't be angry and get calm all at once when I look in those eyes full of love. But there's this one thing that distances can't change. It's the fact that more distances just makes me dream about you more. To think about you more. To miss you more and to fall in love with you more, with each passing moment.// All of these thoughts made me walk far enough that now I was standing at the very place where we used to spend our time together. Where you hummed a song for me standing right beside me for the very first time. "Saari ki saari meri hai tu ,tujhko kabhi na me bantu....To... Sun mere hamsafar, kya tujhe itni si bhi khabar...." All those beautiful memories of the late evenings played their own respective slideshows in my head. And now my lips were smiling while my eyes were crying. I took my cellphone out, and typed a text in it on your name. - " I wished everyday to hold you once more. It was always you that made me dance in my dreams. You are the fountain of good fortune for me. If I could just stay with you forever, I would. If I could I'd hand you out my beating heart on a platter. " //My insanity for you was on it's peak. You know I'm damn stubborn when it comes to you but I just stopped showing it in front of you.// *A deep exhale* I pressed back on my cellphone. And started stepping towards the place where I live. I won't call it my home. Because...... you know why!. -Aditi Goud #creatorshala #blog #blogger #content #caption #read #reading #reader #blogging #art #artist #home #writer #travel #photography #winter #writing #author #poetry #story #storyteller #love #morning

With her Rosewood fragrant palms Covering her face, to hide her tears She knelt down beside my bed. Tucking my hoodie, close to her chest She wept for hours and hours From morning till the sun did rest. Even the aroma of my sweat began to fade away Just like I did; from her life. Our memories felt like sharp blades Tearing her entirely open And cutting her into pieces. My portrait that resides in her mind is no longer a means for her comfort And now she just wants to go blind. For if she can't see me around, What's the point of having Those sparkling beautiful eyes that I fall for? She sobbed till her throat choked And cursing me for all the weeds that I smoked. For she couldn't accept the fact that I'm forever gone. Staring at the bare ceiling She screams " I love you beyond the Sun" For only We knew how much we loved the sunshine. I so desperately want to hold her in my arms And wrap her in the coziness of my abyss That she loves to sink in. But only if I could be alive from the dead To say aloud 'I'm still here', just for her To know. I'll carry her Aura within me for as long as I could; Here I lay Burried in the grounds within the casket of rosewood. -Aditi Goud #writer #writing #author #poem #tercet #creatorshala #girl #love #life #death #rosewood #casket #fashion #hoodie #lifestyle #photography #art #artist #blog #blogger #blogging